And if you do exist—say it—are you not living
somewhere inside of me at times? Unfurling like fungus,
a lump, a foreign body, cosmic cancer, stardust,
from day to day, from year to year, invading
my territory, seizing land, inciting a coup
one day at dawn in winter. Then you’ll rule
with absolute power inside my body thanks to
advancements in conversion surgery to morph into
your likeness, which means nothing, right? If you exist
you are an enemy within, my own antithesis,
an agent, saboteur, and every night you ingest
another bite of me, am I right? It’s no coincidence
that every morning in the glass I see more traces
of pretense creeping in and diagnose my face
as having someone else’s features, wrinkles, grit,
a foreign sentence added, but not in my own script.
Copyright © 2023, Mira Rosenthal translated from the Polish written by Tomasz Różycki, To the Letter, Archipelago Books
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