I am my world. (The microcosm.)
- Ludwig Wittgenstein
Hospitality: the first demand
what is your name?
the city bound me so I entered
to dream a science that would name me
daughter and launch beyond
grief, that old thoracic cause
myocardium: a blood-orange foundry
handed down by the humoral
anatomists and not be
inside my own head perpetually
not simply a Wittgenstein’s girl
but an infinite citizen in a shaking tent
If you are in need of an answer
consult a jiisakiiwinini
scientific rigour
psychoanalysis
the unconscious a construct
method amphibious
of two minds
that's the translator
her task to receive
the call that comes
down the barrel
of the future
all of us a congress
of selves a vibrational chorus
I know myself to be a guest
in your mind a grand lodge
of everything I long to know and hold
within this potlatch we call
the present
moment
If I speak of the night
speak its illicit cerebrum
of branches and back seats
speak beyond our future
a thinkable urn
my empirical training
my non-status brow ridge
indivisible and glistening
every time I tease a thread of being
from its moment in standard time
let's elevate the coordinates of distress
take it all in
I'm all in and over the limit
the limit, the eliminative, the lumens, the mens rea, the loom
to be a shopkeep in the showroom of nouns
what to purchase and what
to disavow
speak with saffron
speak of just the small bits, atomic
speak of the inevitable curve in the data
all foreclosed upon and glimmering
like a good bitch in the brine of night
I haven't nearly enough heat here
in this stakeout
the sky died and I'm its anima in the pitch thickets
I have fingers with which to squish
pin cherries and rosehips
dogwood, I have begun
to hear a rosary of pure tones, the colony
hear its call toward disorder
citizens, I have never
been dishonest in my horror
the underclass of our era
a requisite paternity test
dominus
in excelsis
From Infinite Citizen of the Shaking Tent by Liz Howard
Copyright © 2015 by Liz Howard