I had to.
I decided that I was a planet and —
I am.
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I want to love.
I see old women
Who live.
They know something.
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It's true I've suffered
The delusion
That I am unlamblike.
But oh my gosh that's crazy.
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Though it doesn't matter where I sit
And that I'm fucking crazy.
God gave it to me.
I have to live.
//
It doesn't matter where I sit
And that I'm fucking crunchy.
I have to be fibrous
So as not to be consumed.
I have to
Fucking live.
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I can live —
In the world —
With the people.
I can live in the world with the people if they understand that
All a poet is is some bitch
Who thinks she's better
And feels sort of bad about it
But not, not really that bad more like
Feels bad
For feeling bad
At all.
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Also, I need a lot of money
So I could have a lot of money.
That's why I need it.
I need a lot of money.
So I can have it.
Because I need to have money.
Copyright © 2017, Aisha Sasha John, I have to live., McClelland & Stewart