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Sure, there’s a spell the leaves can make, shuddering,

and in their lying suddenly still again - flat, and still,

like time itself when it seems unexpectedly more

available, more to lose therefore, more to love, or

try to ...

            But to look up from the leaves, remember,

is a choice also, as if up from the shame of it all,

the promiscuity, the seeing-how-nothing-now-will-

save-you, up to the wind-stripped branches shadow-

signing the ground before you the way, lately, all

the branches seem to, or you like to say they do,

which is at least half of the way, isn’t it, toward

belief - whatever, in the end, belief

                        is ... You can

look up, or you can close the eyes entirely, making

some of the world, for a moment, go away, but only

some of it, not the part about hurting others as the one

good answer to being hurt, and not the part that can

at first seem, understandably, a life in ruins, even if -

refusing ruin, because you

                        can refuse - you look

again, down the steep corridor of what’s just another

late winter afternoon, dark as night already, dark

the leaves and, darker still, the door that, each night,

you keep meaning to find again, having lost it, you had

only to touch it, just once, and it bloomed wide open ...

My Meadow, My Twilight

Carl Phillips

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